Why?!! Ian! Why??!!!

Its been a while since Ive written in this blog because before it was just a requirement for my classes, now i feel i need to vent so i decided to put this blog to use and vent with my words.

I'm reading this novel. Its called the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon. She is such an excellent writer and from the first book i read i feel in love with the characters especially the main male character Jamie. From the she described his looks and reading on about his personality, i wished he was real. If only there were such a man out there as he.
But back to the real reason for this blog. I'm reading the fourth book in the series (their are a total of six, soon to be seven!) and towards the end of the book Jamie's nephew nobly takes it upon himself to be traded in as an Indian because one of the whites killed an Indian. And he took it upon himself so that his uncle wouldn't even have to think about. He did this in privacy. No one knew until it was already done. He steps into the hut where his uncle, auntie and bother in law reside as a totally different man. His auntie Claire gasp at the sight of him. He explains to them and of course they don't want it to be so. But they thank him and understand i think.
It just mad me literally start crying. Because i never thought this would happen. I love Ian. Hes so young and full of heart and the fact that once he has become Indian he cannot even stay in contact with his family anymore. its as though they should never exist to him. I'm literally starting to cry again. Its so upsetting. How could Diana Gabaldon do that. It breaks my heart. I can hear his voice even though his just a character in the book. But i just cant grasp the fact that hes basically gone. i love the book and want to go on but i just cant since Ian isn't in it. Though he was never a main character i always knew he'd be there. Probably even marry an Indian but that would be it. Because he finds their cultural interesting. but damn. I love him for being so noble!